Branching out
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sparklepoxHave another prompt fill, short for a change. I really liked this picture and then a certain person was talking about Baekhyun/Kyungsoo on Twitter and somehow this happened.
Warning: extremely vague post-apocalyptic scenario and associated angst
There's nothing good to see outside the window, the sky brown and dead, the ground just as bad, but Baekhyun sits in front of it anyway, staring out. He's quiet, but Kyungsoo knows it won't last. It never does, with Baekhyun. It's only a matter of time before he makes some snarky comment, something that shows how much it doesn't bother him even though it does. Nobody could be unbothered as they watch the world die around them, not even Baekhyun.
Kyungsoo is waiting for Baekhyun to talk as he folds their clothes like it makes any difference now if they're wrinkled, and when he realizes how long he's been waiting, he looks up. He expects to see that Baekhyun has fallen asleep, if anything. He doesn't expect to see tears streaming down Baekhyun's cheeks as he continues to stare out the window at the barren landscape.
It shakes him more than he'd like to admit. Baekhyun hasn't cried once, that he's seen. Kyungsoo doesn't like to cry either, but he has, and Baekhyun hugged him and for once in his life didn't try to make a joke, but he didn't cry then. It seemed like maybe he never would, playing tough until the end, but here he is, shoulders shaking as he cries silently and doesn't even try to hide it.
Kyungsoo hasn't said anything, but Baekhyun must realize he's noticed because he speaks at last. His voice is choked full of sadness, nothing like what Kyungsoo was waiting for. "Look at it. There were so many great things in the world and look what they've come to. Look what we've come to. We're hanging on here, but why are we even—"
And then he breaks off because Kyungsoo has gotten to his feet without thinking about it and covered Baekhyun's eyes with his hands, blocking out the bleak, sad view. Baekhyun takes in a deep, shaky gasp of a breath and falls silent as Kyungsoo leans his forehead against the back of his head. "Don't," he murmurs. "Don't give up. I need you to keep being stupid and sarcastic and so annoyingly brave. I need you to keep going with me."
He feels raw and exposed, putting these things into words, but his hands are wet with Baekhyun's tears and he knows it's necessary. "I know everything is a mess, but I'm still here. We're still here. Don't give up."
Baekhyun reaches up and takes hold of his wrists, pulling Kyungsoo's hands away from his eyes, and for one too-long moment, Kyungsoo is really scared, but then Baekhyun turns and pulls him into a tight hug, burying his face in Kyungsoo's shoulder. Kyungsoo wraps his arms around him like Baekhyun did for him before and doesn't try to say anything else.
It's probably not more than a few minutes, though it seems like forever, before Baekhyun pulls away. His eyes are still red and shiny but the tears aren't falling anymore, and he wipes away the remnants "I'm sorry," he says. "I'm okay now." His voice is rough and too serious for Baekhyun, but it's steady now.
Kyungsoo gives a little shake of his head, not trusting his own voice, and presses a kiss to Baekhyun's lips and then his forehead to say what's hard for him to put into words even now. "I love you," Baekhyun says, because he's brave in ways Kyungsoo has never and maybe now will never learn how to be.
"No more crying," Kyungsoo says gruffly, and it feels so good to see Baekhyun laugh, even with the tear tracks drying on his face, the way he does when he knows what Kyungsoo isn't saying.
"No more," Baekhyun agrees. "I promise." He pulls the curtains shut, closing out the dreary view, and turns back to Kyungsoo with a smile on his face. "I'm telling you, we're going to be okay, together."
He's probably wrong, but in this moment, it doesn't matter. They're together and Baekhyun is smiling and for just a little while, Kyungsoo's going to let himself forget the outside world and believe.
Warning: extremely vague post-apocalyptic scenario and associated angst
There's nothing good to see outside the window, the sky brown and dead, the ground just as bad, but Baekhyun sits in front of it anyway, staring out. He's quiet, but Kyungsoo knows it won't last. It never does, with Baekhyun. It's only a matter of time before he makes some snarky comment, something that shows how much it doesn't bother him even though it does. Nobody could be unbothered as they watch the world die around them, not even Baekhyun.
Kyungsoo is waiting for Baekhyun to talk as he folds their clothes like it makes any difference now if they're wrinkled, and when he realizes how long he's been waiting, he looks up. He expects to see that Baekhyun has fallen asleep, if anything. He doesn't expect to see tears streaming down Baekhyun's cheeks as he continues to stare out the window at the barren landscape.
It shakes him more than he'd like to admit. Baekhyun hasn't cried once, that he's seen. Kyungsoo doesn't like to cry either, but he has, and Baekhyun hugged him and for once in his life didn't try to make a joke, but he didn't cry then. It seemed like maybe he never would, playing tough until the end, but here he is, shoulders shaking as he cries silently and doesn't even try to hide it.
Kyungsoo hasn't said anything, but Baekhyun must realize he's noticed because he speaks at last. His voice is choked full of sadness, nothing like what Kyungsoo was waiting for. "Look at it. There were so many great things in the world and look what they've come to. Look what we've come to. We're hanging on here, but why are we even—"
And then he breaks off because Kyungsoo has gotten to his feet without thinking about it and covered Baekhyun's eyes with his hands, blocking out the bleak, sad view. Baekhyun takes in a deep, shaky gasp of a breath and falls silent as Kyungsoo leans his forehead against the back of his head. "Don't," he murmurs. "Don't give up. I need you to keep being stupid and sarcastic and so annoyingly brave. I need you to keep going with me."
He feels raw and exposed, putting these things into words, but his hands are wet with Baekhyun's tears and he knows it's necessary. "I know everything is a mess, but I'm still here. We're still here. Don't give up."
Baekhyun reaches up and takes hold of his wrists, pulling Kyungsoo's hands away from his eyes, and for one too-long moment, Kyungsoo is really scared, but then Baekhyun turns and pulls him into a tight hug, burying his face in Kyungsoo's shoulder. Kyungsoo wraps his arms around him like Baekhyun did for him before and doesn't try to say anything else.
It's probably not more than a few minutes, though it seems like forever, before Baekhyun pulls away. His eyes are still red and shiny but the tears aren't falling anymore, and he wipes away the remnants "I'm sorry," he says. "I'm okay now." His voice is rough and too serious for Baekhyun, but it's steady now.
Kyungsoo gives a little shake of his head, not trusting his own voice, and presses a kiss to Baekhyun's lips and then his forehead to say what's hard for him to put into words even now. "I love you," Baekhyun says, because he's brave in ways Kyungsoo has never and maybe now will never learn how to be.
"No more crying," Kyungsoo says gruffly, and it feels so good to see Baekhyun laugh, even with the tear tracks drying on his face, the way he does when he knows what Kyungsoo isn't saying.
"No more," Baekhyun agrees. "I promise." He pulls the curtains shut, closing out the dreary view, and turns back to Kyungsoo with a smile on his face. "I'm telling you, we're going to be okay, together."
He's probably wrong, but in this moment, it doesn't matter. They're together and Baekhyun is smiling and for just a little while, Kyungsoo's going to let himself forget the outside world and believe.
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Date: 2015-02-12 01:54 pm (UTC)(I should write more Baeksoo...)
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Date: 2015-03-09 12:53 pm (UTC)TTTTTTT______TTTTTT
For some reason this makes me think of last night when baek's crying and the sadness doubled and i cannot not tearing up. It's sad that he holds everything and keep it to himself and pretend he's fine, he's okay and he's the happy-go-lucky guy of the town. It's sad that people see him as the rude annoying obnoxious one while he's honestly just trying to cheer people up, to hide his own sadness aND I'M CRYING AGAIN OH MY GOD I HATE YOU FOR MAKING ME FEEL THINGS
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Date: 2015-03-09 01:02 pm (UTC)